Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me...
I say we, but actually, it was a letter to my dad, delivered to our address.
It was a form letter from a life insurance company, writing to say that they were notifying him that the company had changed names. They would continue to automatically withdraw his premiums(!), nothing about that had changed, but that it would be under a new name.
Nick called them this morning. And then he called to conference me in.
It turns out that my dad had another life insurance policy, a very small one, one we didn't know about. He and Betty had a joint bank account, and as such, it wasn't closed when he died. So they have been pulling premiums out for the last five years.
I was fine in this conference call conversation, even through stating cause of death. At this point Nick asked when the policy was opened. 1992. Which turns out to be a good thing. Because in Virginia - and I hope you never need to know this - if the policy is more than two years old, they cannot refuse to pay because it was suicide.
So I was fine until the representative asked for date of death. I had to put the phone aside and ask my mom. Because I have deliberately avoided knowing.
I walked toward the kitchen, saying, "Mama, did Dad die on May 15 or 16?"
She paused just a moment. "May 16."
I didn't realize I was holding my breath, but I was. The tears started to flow as I exhaled.
May 16 is the second day. The day I wouldn't take away from his life, but the day that means he had a whole day away to change his mind, to come back to us. And he didn't.
And I am bereft all over again.