Tuesday, June 12, 2018
Morning smiles like the face of a newborn child
The room was dark and quiet, and as I thought about my response, I said, "Am I afraid of anything? Hmm."
I'm terrified of somehow losing my kids, like in a car or plane crash, and having to face life without them. I'm scared something will happen to Nick. I know one day my mom will die and I worry about it. I'll be so devastated, I'll fall apart completely.
I'm scared to look in the mirror in the dark. I have been since second grade, when we played Bloody Mary at my house in Bangladesh. If I have to use the bathroom at night, I hurry in and out, looking straight ahead, making sure I don't glance in the mirror.
The other night it occurred to me vampires don't have a reflection. So looking in the mirror, you wouldn't even if know one were behind you.
Clowns, clowns frighten me, ever since Poltergeist. I read Steven King's It years and years ago, and that added to my clown terror. I couldn't watch the movie trailers.
I'm afraid of turbulence, I'm afraid my plane will crash. I worry about not having enough time with connections, and missing my next flight.
The idea of sink holes makes me anxious, although Nick has assured me that DC is built on rock.
I'm scared of accidentally backing into a geyser, although I've never yet been to Yellowstone. I'm scared of tsunamis and super volcanoes and being in the Pacific Northwest when that one giant tsunami earthquake liquefies the entire area.
At night, in the living room, when I'm the last one to bed, I fear a hand will reach out from under the couch as I walk by.
Also, rabies. Good lord, the rabies.
I'm afraid I'm not special. That actually, I'm just plain ordinary.
"Sharks," I said. I'm pretty scared of sharks. What about you?"