I hear that I look so much younger than my age all the time. I know it's meant as a compliment, and I take it as such, but quite honestly, I have no idea what to make of it.
Because I don't really know what looking my age is supposed to look like. I have this feeling it looks like what we expect from our parents' or grandparents' generations. You know, pre-sunscreen and staying out of the sun and moisturizing the shit out of your skin and whatever else.
I've got more wrinkles than I did in my 20s, but other than that, I've looked almost the same since I was in high school. Over the years I've weighed more and less, had longer and shorter hair, but my face hasn't really changed and nor has my body.
Also, I don't know what my age is supposed to feel like. I didn't feel grown up when I hit 21, and I didn't feel grown up when I hit 30, and the truth is, whenever I put on lipstick, I still feel like I'm trying to present myself as more grown up than I really am. Like I'm trying to fake it or something.
And I could say the same for my friends, whose ages vary greatly. So does this mean my friends all look young for their respective ages, too?
And then, if we all look young for our age, doesn't that actually mean we all look our age? Maybe we just don't look like whoever is saying it expects us to look.