Someone asked me recently if I was hugely disappointed that I had a C-section rather than a vaginal birth.
I've been told I shouldn't feel bad about it, just because it didn't go the way I planned. I had a healthy baby, and that's all that matters.
And quite frankly, I believe this.
I didn't get derailed because my birth scenario didn't play out the way I'd wanted. It wasn't that. But I was very upset about it at the time, and maybe I did feel cheated of a birth experience.
I was so immensely upset when they told me. Going into it, there was no way I was having a C-section.
And then, then I had to have one.
But by this point, it's not really about the birth for me, but about the recovery.
I'm not disappointed, and I don't feel cheated, but I do still dearly wish I hadn't had to have one.
Because I don't know about you, but I seem to use my stomach muscles a hell of a lot more than I use my vagina.