Wednesday, November 11, 2009

When you turn out to be your own problem

As I've talked about a number of times, I avoid getting on scales because it makes me a crazy, number-obsessed person.

So all the way along my pregnancy, I didn't find out what I weighed. And then in the hospital, when they were about to give me the epidural, they asked so that they could figure out the amount.

I had to ask the nurse to look at my chart. My weight from the week prior was a gain of 27 pounds. So let's say by that point it was 28 or 29. Not too terrible.

And I think, at this point, I've lost most of it. I mean, I must've been 10 pounds lighter immediately after the boy was born.

I am almost out of my maternity pants. And by this I mean that I can snausage myself into my regular jeans, and I do fairly regularly just to keep myself in check. But the maternity ones, oh, much more comf!

And the problem, it is as follows.

I might be approaching my old weight and size. But I'm not the same shape. I have a stomach - which I'd never had, not even in my heaviest of college days. And I'm squishier. The butt, well, I don't think I even feel like thinking about it.

A very dear friend sent me The Shred and some hand weights. How awesome a gift is this? And I want to use it and kick my own ass. I do.

But not quite as much as I want to eat the entire leftover Halloween bag of Reese's peanut butter cups. And take a nap.

15 comments:

  1. I just purchased The Shred, too! And I just had a bagel and cream cheese. If I get moving on The Shred, then I think I'll enjoy holiday eating a little better. As I stuff the last of the bagel into my mouth and lick the left over cream cheese off the plate. Anyway, starting first thing tomorrow!

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  2. On a day like today, motivation seems determined to hide itself under the heaviest, soggiest, slime-covered rock.

    Whereas those peanut butter cups? Are totally posing in the best lighting, shining in their pretty little wrappers.

    In other words, I don't think anyone could blame you. Enjoy!

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  3. Any weight you still carry is likely in your bodacious bosom. Embrace your inner-Joan Holloway, Cookie. And have another Reeses.

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  4. The Shred is kind of fun on really bad days. There is no one you'll hate more than Jillian in those 30 minutes, and there are lots of opportunities to punch at the TV like you're trying to take her out.

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  5. well the way i look at it, your body did change permanently, there is no literal going back to the pre-baby body days before your pelvic bones spread apart, your stomach skin stretched to absurd proportions, etc.

    but you can take the new body that landed on you (like *poof* in about a year) and totally rock the shit out of it based on what it actually is now. but getting to that acceptance of the *now* vs. *then* that is the hard part.

    and i think it also goes hand-in-hand with aging in general. you can't get back to the pre-pregnancy body any more than you can get to the 21 year old body. shit just changes and time just marches on - all over your ass.

    but when you really step back you realize that if you're going to age anyway, and your body will eventually get wacked out no matter how much excercise and how much wrinkle cream or whatever, thank god at least you got the baby out of the whole process.

    i mean, just imagine if you were so so concerned over avoiding the post-pregnancy body that you just avoided motherhood altogether so you could keep a flat tummy - well you'd just age anyway and your body would fall off anyway, and when you got to that point you'd be like - dammit!!

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  6. Ok, Read your Blog but then had to Google "the Shred" not having the remotest idea what "the Shred' was. I dont watch TV so dont know the programme they talk about "biggest loser' but it all looks good and sounds great to me. Maybe I should get the shred, then it can sit beside the Pilates and Cher's aerobics dvds and the yoga dvds I have. An impressive line up, but do they ever get used..........ahhhh not for some time now :S. Still its summer and ai could use a workout or two now and then. :).

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  7. Ok, Read your Blog but then had to Google "the Shred" not having the remotest idea what "the Shred' was. I dont watch TV so dont know the programme they talk about "biggest loser' but it all looks good and sounds great to me. Maybe I should get the shred, then it can sit beside the Pilates and Cher's aerobics dvds and the yoga dvds I have. An impressive line up, but do they ever get used..........ahhhh not for some time now :S. Still its summer and ai could use a workout or two now and then. :).

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  8. I am one year post-baby, have been working my ass of for pretty much the last 10 months, and though I'm 10 pounds lighter and a whole lot fitter than I was pre-baby, I have accepted that my stomach will never be flat again. I'm good with that though - the new tummy and my c-section scar give me street cred with the other moms.

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  9. Before June, I was a yoga and walking kind of girl. I never ran, went to the gym, lifted weights, or any of that jock stuff. I did go to hot power yoga classes regularly while I lived in Charleston, but since being back in Columbia SC hadn't found a yoga place.

    A twitter buddy of mine suggested I try the Shred when I was plateau-ing in my get-back-in-shape efforts (after being unemployed & slothful, not having a baby!).

    I am now completely obsessed with Jillian. In 5 or 6 months of consistently doing the Shred 4-5 days a week, I've totally changed my body. I now also have her other DVDs (No More Trouble Zones and Banish Fat Boost Metabolism) and mix those into the rotation.

    For the first week or two, you just have to do it, motivation or not. Then you'll cross over to the other side, and you'll WANT to do it! You'll feel awesome. You'll feel strong and kick-ass. You'll be able to eat some Reese's (but not a lot!) and still make progress.

    I highly recommend it! You can get your body back, and in only 20 minutes a day. She's amazing!

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  10. The Shred is so effing annoying. Candy is way cooler.

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  11. The Shred will not get stale as fast as the Reeses will. First things first.

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  12. One of the first things I thought when we met last week was "Ah! She's so pretty and tiny!"

    So... there's that.

    Also? I'm doing the damn shred right now (again) and am on day 2. And am so sore I want to die. Totally worth it.

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  13. i could have written this post. i spent the entire time reading it nodding my head in agreement. must look into this shred business!

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  14. Lisa- Give yourself some time. I was getting really frustrated at 2 months post-partem, because it seemed like I just was stuck 2 sizes bigger than I used to be, and 4 lbs heavier. My weight wasn't moving at all, and my work clothes still didn't fit. Then we moved, and I didn't see a scale again for at least a month (or those work clothes). We unpacked everything a couple of weeks ago, and now, 4 months post partem, all my old clothes fit and I'm about 4 lbs under what I was when I got pregnant. I'm not saying that's necessarily what's going to happen to you, but I do think that you need to give your body some more time to adjust. I still have a bit of a belly when I relax those abs, but hell, what can you expect when those muscles were stretched so far?

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  15. The Shred will totally kick your butt in a good way, about a week after I started it people started asking if I was working out again. My only problem with it, it only lasted about 3 weeks and I got horribly bored with the same routine, and jokes and stuff over and over again. One of my friends gave me good advice which I have to admit that I never followed, but I will when I get back on it and that is to play your own music and turn down the volume, especially once you know what she is saying. And you will, oh you will remember every word.

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