I have been bursting into tears left and right. All morning.
Seriously. I was making coffee in the kitchen at the same time as Tej, and we disagreed about something totally insignificant - and I started to cry. Not like delicate, gentle raindrops misting my cheeks. More like sobbing gently into a paper towel trying desperately to stop before someone I would never want to see me cry entered the kitchen.
I got myself together and sniveled down a back hall to the Quad. Where Kay gave me a hug.
And then my lovely friend T, who is one of my bridesmaids and is going to sing as part of the ceremony - she's a fantastic soprano - called. She said she generally hates weddings but is so completely excited about mine, and she just can't wait.
This made me wail.
And then Maria finished the programs and handed them to me. And they're lovely. Once again, tears.
I'm so excited about committing to Nick forever and ever. I'm not scared, I'm not nervous, I'm not having second thoughts. He is exactly who I want to be with.
We have a beautiful venue. We have great catering and fantastic music lined up.
And most importantly, we have almost all of our favorite people in the world coming - some from really far away. Far like Australia and Poland and Macedonia and France far! Not to mention California and Texas!
It's all so wonderful, and I'm so excited about it.
And yet somehow today, I can't seem to stop crying.