Saturday, October 30, 2010

How to feel like a terrible mother

I'm currently hiding from my kid.

I brought a large glass of wine up to the bedroom and left Nick in the kitchen to struggle with the kid and the yogurt. And I just heard them head down the hall for a bath.

I should go help. And I just don't want to.

Because right now, everything is WHINE. And Nonononono! And WAAAAAAAH WHINE WAH HAH HAH. And WHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNEE

I would like to be one of those mothers who rises above, who is all, "Poor dear. He's frustrated because he can't express himself."

And instead I'm all, I wonder how long and how much effort it would take to put him in full-time day care? And if I work full time plus get a second job could we afford a nanny at night and on the weekends?

I hear the whiny screech for the 547th time in a day and I think, oh shutupshutupshutupshutup!

You know I love him so much. And he's still the cutest thing I've ever seen in my entire life.

But I kind of can't stand him right now.

14 comments:

  1. I hear you, sister. Sabine is in a high-pitched-shriek-of-bossy-flossy-anger phase. It is like a knife through my skull. I just go to the bathroom a lot.

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  2. Oh, you are not alone. I actually HAVE the full time live in nanny, but she has weekends off. And there are times I can't wait for Monday to get here. Even though during the week I can't wait to go home and see him, and I live for weekends when I get to spend the whole day with him, he drives me nuts some days. At least you can escape with a glass of wine. I can't even do that anymore!

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  3. Brunch Bird - I'm sorry you're in the same boat...but I'm glad to hear I'm in good company. Yes! So shrieky and bossy and I just want to stab myself in the ears.

    Luna - I hear you - I can't wait to get home to see him, get so excited, miss him when I'm not with him...and then think, man, how much longer till he takes a nap? And the no-wine escape is temporary. :)

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  4. at least you have the good sense to run away! i tell my kids to stop talking to me and plop them in front of the tv to get a break sometimes :/

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  5. Happens to the best of us; sometimes Henry is 8 shades of fury and if you try to catch a break by say, putting him in the Exersaucer of the play yard? He finds a 9th...

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  6. This too shall pass. Keep going all will be fine. (hugs)

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  7. That was totally my life yesterday. Between the teething and crying and whining and obstinacy, it was everything I could do to not just get in the car, point it toward a beach somewhere (California?), and just keep driving. A good night's sleep helped. Keep the faith.

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  8. California, hell- somewhere with a no-extradition policy would be better.

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  9. I think it's impossible for a mommy to love her baby 100% of the time, isn't it? Only Mother Teresa would be capable of that, and HEY, she didn't have ANY kids!

    Actually, I think this is why the people who live in the "it takes a village" societies have a pretty good thing going... Mommy gets a break when the kid is especially nerve-grating...

    Good luck, and know that it won't last forever! In a few months/years, he'll develop all new things that drive you crazy. :P (As the mom of a baby who is now 12 years old, I think if I have to have one more argument about brushing teeth I might pull my hair out.)

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  10. this is why it is so awesome to have two parents!

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  11. I was in the same place in my house (sans glass of wine, but hey, good idea!) on Saturday, too, due to a losing battle on the changing table with a rolling/crawling one-year old! Sorry you're going through this...this between babyhood and toddlerhood phase is so difficult! And definitely take advantage of the daddy/son time to get some you time - a few minutes of peace for mommy works wonders, I think!

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  12. The honesty between the women here is such a postiive thing. I remember when days like this weren't spoken of in public, on any meaningful level.

    So many of us were isolated up there on that damn Pedestal of Motherhood. And when the 70's came, we were supposed to have a rewarding career outside the home as well. We were led to believe that we could - no, should - expect to "have it all" - so, no pressure, eh? And on top of all that, statistics overwhelmingly showed that the men weren't helping out.

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  13. This would be why I spend the weekends at Cowgirl's house. To keep her from completely losing it.

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