Monday, March 07, 2011

So it's not no, but it's not yes. I guess it's yes on the way to no. In other words: Goddammit.

So on Friday I went in for blood work and then got a call and the first thing she said was, "Congratulations!"

Yippee! Everything looked good!

And then this morning I went in for more blood work - just to make sure things are progressing fine - and then waited and waited for a call with results. The results I know nobody wants to give and nobody wants to hear.

My numbers aren't doubling as they should. I need to come in on Wednesday for more blood. If it's not a viable pregnancy, they want my numbers to start going down.

Because if they don't, it could mean an ectopic pregnancy.

I asked her if the expectation is that it's not a viable pregnancy.

And she said yes.

33 comments:

  1. Aw, that sucks. I'm really sorry.

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  2. oh gosh, lisa i'm so sorry. for some reason that awkward limbo stage is actually so much worse then a definite yes or no.

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  3. Oh, Lisa, I second your damn it.

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  4. That's terrible news to hear, Lisa. I hope it's not what you fear, though.

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  5. Damn it. I'm so sorry. I'll keep thinking positive thoughts until you get a definitive answer though. If things are as your doctor suspects, does this mean you are a good candidate for the clomid moving forward?

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  6. Oh, I'm so sorry. That's awful, and the waiting is the worst.

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  7. Damn it all to hell. I'm very, very sorry.

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  8. ugh, i can't even imagine what shitty news that would be to get. i'm sorry girl. waiting for that kind of confirmation must be awful. keeping the best thoughts going for you though...

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  9. I'm really sorry. One of my close local friends is also going through this - about 2 weeks ahead of your schedule. It is so hard not to get expectations up - and doubly hard when the initial results are positive. I'm thinking anti-ectopic thoughts for you and blessings for the next go.

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  10. Good luck, and Goddamn it.

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  11. Damn it! I spent the last 9 days on vacation, and when I got home last night the very first thing I did (no kidding) was open up my laptop to check your blog. I had been thinking about you all week and I was so hopeful for you.

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  12. I, too was so hopeful! I'm so sorry, Lisa.

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  13. That sucks, Lisa. I'm sorry :(

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  14. I'm sorry Lisa. Goddamnit..... Peace and good thoughts to you friend.

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  15. I'm so sorry Lisa. It sucks ass, plain and simple. My thoughts are with you.

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  16. that totally blows lisa. i'm so sorry. thanks for keeping us posted - you have no idea how much you're straight forward, honest discussion of this topic means to people. xoxo

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  17. Nope I am not giving up yet I will hang on to thinking and sending positive thoughts until a confirmation comes through, so loads of positive thoughts your way from the southern corner.

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  18. :-( Damnit!!! I wondered all weekend. Still, my fingers will remain crossed and I'm positive thinking. Take care of you.

    Lynn

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  19. Sending you good thoughts!

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  20. Let me be the 11th to dammit, dammit.

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  21. I've been there and it's awful. I'm so sorry.

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  22. well that really sucks. take care of yourself and your family.

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  23. Thanks, you all. I can't respond to these one by one - it just makes me cry.

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  24. I'm so sorry. Hugs.

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  25. I'm really sorry, Lisa. The ride you're on is a shitty one.

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  26. I'm sorry, love. I'm sending a hearty "fuck you!" out to the universe on your behalf.

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  27. i'm really sorry lisa. im sending lots of love and positive energy your way. xoxo

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  28. So sorry, babe. I am. I am thinking about you all the time. This is hard stuff. Just know that instead of snow and wind, I'm sending shining white light out your way.

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  29. I hope you get better news today Lisa. I've been there too and it sucks big time. But it doesn't mean all hope is lost. Erin came after seven miscarriages....

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